what thirty brought so far

so, i turned 30 this weekend. i don't feel too different. my age hasn't really made me feel any certain way, more so things that have been happening around me.

thanks to all of my friends and family who helped me celebrate this year and helped the party go so well. too bad we didn't have warmer weather, but at least there was no rain.

the new job took a good turn today as i changed trainers. we had a good day, i learned a lot and am starting to understand the width and depth of what and where my responsabilities will lie. i was informed today that i am part of the management team, so this may have been a bigger step up than i had realized. but, things are going well there so far.

something that is not so well is the loss of a dear, dear friend stella. we lost her to a brain aneurysm. i feel so sad that i hadn't had a chance to say good-bye to her. my heart aches for her husband, bill who is a lost soul without his true mate. stella and i have been close for some ten years. she almost made it to her 79th birthday, and in some sour twist was gone just a few days before she could help me usher in my thirtieth year. i am still sad each day and i think of her often. her sudden passing has bounced me toward a certain perspective of love that sometimes gets off-center when we are busy living life.

i hope everyone is well.